Flying Backwards (2019)

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Almost gone
In a time past memory
In a place where I could be
All the dust that gathered there
Covers wanting and despair

 

Life’s a darkened fairy tale
Where the hero’s set to fail
Sword and stone, blood and bone
Barely hanging on
Almost gone

 

I had set upon a quest
Never feeling at my best
Monsters far as I could see
Were all sent to vanquish me

 

With my weapon at my side
I gave in and fled to hide
Sword and stone, all alone
Barely hanging on
Almost gone

 

When no place can shelter you
There’s nothing left that you can do
When you’re wounded more than most
Dreams can visit like a ghost

 

Strong of heart with noble steed
Though in armor I still bleed
Sword and stone, I curse the throne
Barely hanging on, I’m
Almost gone 

If everything were upside down
Would every frown become a welcome mat

And what if happiness just froze
Do you suppose we’d have a shot for that

 

Oh, stop me from running
The clever and stupid
The guileless or cunning
I need another hole in the head

 

Would you come meet me at my birth
If the Earth was more in love with you

And would you sail the skies with me
If you could see the Earth had loved me too

 

Oh, stop me from running
The clever and stupid
The guileless or cunning
I need another hole in the head

 

If stars were all papier mache
Would the way they sparkle lose their shine

And if the dirt was made of glass
Would you amass the reasons to be mine

 

Oh, stop me from running
The clever and stupid
The guileless or cunning
I need another hole in the head

 

If everything were upside down
Would you have found a reason
To be mine
Or not

Was a time
Before yesterday
When a bird sat in a tree

 

Then sublime 
She would fly away
Where no earthly eye could see
And left that lonely tree

 

And sometimes
He would wake to find
That bird upon his branch

 

Up she climbs
Their limbs intertwined
He ends his search
Becomes a perch
A birch and feather dream

 

Oh, I know
There’s magic in the air
And oh, I know
They’re such a perfect pair
And oh, I know
It really isn’t fair
And everybody sees
The rattlesnakes and fleas
The love affair
Of birds and trees

 

When she’s gone
He still feels her there
In amongst his leaves

 

Later on
There’s a moment where
He’ll wish she would
Come home for good
A wood and feather dream

 

Oh, I know
There’s magic in the air
And oh, I know
They’re such a perfect pair
And oh, I know
It really isn’t fair
And everybody sees
The scorpions and bees
The love affair
Of birds and trees

 

When she sleeps
He can feel her heart
Beat quickly in her chest

 

Then she leaps
Soon he knows she’ll part
They both reach high
Up to the sky
But only one can fly

 

Oh, I know
There’s magic in the air
And oh, I know
They’re such a perfect pair
And oh, I know
It really isn’t fair
And everybody sees
The rattlesnakes and fleas
The love affair
Of birds and trees

There are places where we gather, that feel like home to me
Where everybody there says I can be free
Free to be
Flat broke
Now down another whiskey
Oh, careful you don’t choke

 

Now everyone remembers March, April, May and June
When you were so much happier you sang a different tune
Far too soon
It’s gone
Now everyone is off key
Still you try to carry on

 

I’ll have another drink even if I have to steal
‘cause I can almost feel

 

There’s a table in the corner with the wall against my back
It’s the seat that I am used to, shields me from attack
It’s all black
Like my soul
You best watch out for me, boys
I’m about to lose control

 

Now you’ve had two too many, and in the candle light
I don’t have to see to know that you are spoiling for a fight
It’s alright
Let’s go
Well, we may be dead tomorrow
Or worse alive, you never know

 

The room has started spinning, and I can’t seem to leave my chair
But I’m too drunk to care

 

There are places where we gather, to pass the time away
The bottom of a bottle is the place I go to pray
Every day
More hell
Ah, you should go on without me
I ain’t feeling all too well
‘cause heaven’s gone and left me too
Am I dead now, well it’s just too soon to tell

Well the future is often hazy
While the past shows murky skies
And my path now seems overflowing
As the rivers start to rise

 

Now I can’t see where I’m going
And I don’t know where I’ve been

 

That don’t stop the sun from rising
Or the storm clouds from moving in

 

Well this never-ending journey
And the winds that beat me back
As I cower and fear the darkness
Ever waiting for attack

 

As my body weak and broken
Feels the pressure crack my skin

 

That don’t stop the sun from rising
Or the storm clouds from moving in

 

Well the darkness seems to be breaking
And the sunlight fills up the sky
I am weary, but I am hopeful
For I long to be warm and dry

 

Now I linger to catch my breath
I’m not eager to begin

 

That don’t stop the sun from rising
Or the storm clouds from moving in
No, that don’t stop the sun from rising
Or the storm clouds from moving in

I dreamt that I was a bird and I flew
Buildings so high and I circled all around you

 

But the wind picked up
And your body went down
So you called my name
And I hung on

 

I was the wind and I blew threw the trees
You stood and grinned as I touched you with a warm breeze

 

So you floated up
But I pulled you back down
And you called my name
And I hung on

 

I was a tree with my roots in the ground
You stood with me so there’d always be someone else around

 

And we both grew up
No one brought us down
Well, you called my name
And I hung on
Through the falls and springs
We both count our rings
You’re my everything
And I hung on

Those lusting fingertips
So sweet, and divine
They wander aimlessly
And melt with mine

 

Half the world’s awake
I’m not thinking at all
Cause I don’t believe in love

 

Lipstick and fireworks
Each kiss that we share
Crackles and thundering
Explodes in the air

 

Half the world’s awake
I’m not thinking at all
Cause I don’t believe in love

 

And I’m upside-down again
And I’m lost in maybe then
There’ll be a moment when
It comes around
And crashes
Spent and empty
On the ground

 

Brushing the hair away
My palm your cheek
Skin so like porcelain
So strong so weak

 

Half the world’s awake
I’m not thinking at all
Cause I don’t believe in love
Half the world’s awake
But I don’t care at all
Cause I don’t believe in love

I kept a subway token hidden in my shoe
So if I lost everything, I could still come back to you

 

But there isn’t any train who’s car
Will open near the exit where you are
Caught between the stations I have found
I’m stuck here underground

 

Now I can’t go forward, nor can I go back
The only choice I have is wait and stay on track

 

But it’s getting hard for me to stay
When I know right now you’re traveling away
Exiting the car would be unsound
I’m stuck here underground

 

When you find you have no power
And the only thing that’s bright
Are warning lights

 

As I look for help, a voice on the PA
Crackles uselessly, I can’t make out what they say

 

And even if they knew how they should start
They wouldn’t have the tools to fix my heart
And I don’t know which way is homeward bound
I’m stuck here underground
I’m stuck here underground

No one’s on the way to save the day
Look up in the sky; no one’s flying by to save you

 

Monsters marching down to take the town
Where’s your hero now; no one else knows how I flew 

 

But I’m not Superman today
I might not be Superman at all
A man who flies certainly can fall

 

Villains make demands while shaking hands
Using all their schemes to achieve their dreams for power

 

Underlings began to hatch a plan
Bombs count down to zero, where’s the hero of the hour  

 

But I’m not Superman today
I might not be Superman at all
A man who flies certainly can fall

 

I’m flying backwards
But time’s not standing still
I find that I’ve lost much more than the thrill

 

So I’m not Superman today
I might not be Superman at all
A man who flies certainly can fall
And I’m not Superman today
I’m no longer in the shape
I think it’s time to turn in my tights and cape
And I’m not Superman today

Oh, lord
I am dying
I hear you calling from the other side
And your world is hard
So my soul is scarred
When I get there, oh, lord
Better run and hide

 

Cause I’m coming
From expecting glory
And you must know how hard I’ve tried
But every effort I’ve made
Marks another price I’ve paid
So, when I get there, oh, lord
You better run and hide

 

I’m not looking for vengeance
Just rewards I was denied

 

So when I get you in view
It’ll be me judging you
Best when I get there, oh, lord
You better run and hide

 

What about the life you promised
Only conclusion is you lied

 

I have lived by your word
But it’s as if you hadn’t heard
Yes, when I get there, oh, lord
You better run and hide

 

Oh, lord
I am dying
As time draws near, you better decide
What the answer will be
Will you have answers for me
Or instead, oh, lord
Will you run and hide

 

With what I expect you to say
After the world has slipped away
When I get there, oh, lord
Better run and hide

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